After wrestling for a couple weeks on what to say and how to say it, I think I’ve finally figured it out.
A few months ago, T and her 14-year-old daughter K moved in with me, because they needed a place to stay for a few months. For reasons I won’t go into, T is going to be unavailable for a while, so K will be living with me, along with her 17-year-old sister A. In addition to this, M and her young daughters A and B are living here, which makes for a wonderfully full house.
(Full of females, including the dogs, which gives some male members of my family a little bit of anxiety at the idea of coming over).
So this is where I find myself these days – making doctor and dentist appointments, planning meals on a regular basis for more than just myself, checking school grades and helping with homework, and learning what parents mean when they say they feel like they’re running a taxi service. And although I am not the girls’ mother, I’m still getting a crash course in parenting. I am certain that I am exactly where God wants me, even as I’m getting used to this new schedule and the myriad new responsibilities that come with it.
I started reading The Circle Maker by Mark Batterson today, and these words jumped out at me:
“I felt underqualified and overwhelmed, but that is when God has you right where He wants you. That is how you learn to live in raw dependence – and raw dependence is the raw material out of which God performs His greatest miracles.”
This is where I am – sure that I can’t do this job, but confident that He can. And anticipating that God will do miraculous things.